Tatiana love letter

Tatiana shows her true emotion in the letter, and at the time just expressing your love through a letter was forbidden. She took it a step further and went into detail of her feelings. I cant tell if her emotions are true love or lust. When she writes the letter to onegin she has hope he will like her too, but at the same time she feels nervous and unsure of how he may react. in a way throughout her letter it seems like onegin has been leading her on, but i do not feel that way i feel that she just told her self he was so she would feel better about sending the letter to him. Her true emotion is all blurred but her obsession so the true emotion is unreadable.